There's always silver lining....

BLESSING IN DISGUISE

i was in part three pre-degree in Malacca when i was first time heard this line..three words, just three words~~enough for the syntax and the subject-verb-agreement stuff..we have in Malay or in Islamic point of view, it says:

Setiap apa yang berlaku, pasti ada hikmah sebaliknya..

but, honestly i prefer blessing in disguise because it carries a lot of meaning behind those words ~~nasib aku budak literature..

yesterday, i was an inch to fall into the darkness of hell, once again...i was overslept on the day of my final exam..bengong la aku nih..i entered the hall almost 20 minutes late..thank God, i was able to make it there just on edge of rejection..for heaven sake, why i can't change my attitude? there's no big deal, just come early or on-time or in another word PUNCTUALITY~~~which i find it so damn difficult to achieve.

change to another story,

erm..am i suppose to say this?






I HATE WOMEN WHEN THEY ANGRY

wondering why some of men find angry in women as sexy...arghhh, that is sick! that is lust..coz i find it rather annoying, irritating and simply eating my eardrum..when women scorned even the fury of hell hath no..at first, i was planning to go back to my home with my sisters on 30th of April, but they, decided to cancel it as they are going to Indonesia for something you can call holiday..arghh, due to that, i decided to back home with my motorcycle.

a journey of:

~456km of ride
~~7 to 8 hours (with cars at speed of 80-100km/hour)
~~~at least 10 hours with motorcycle
~~~~crossing Selangor and Pahang to reach my state
~~~~~no highways(only Karak Highway to reach Bentong)
~~~~~~crossing countless of dangerous mountain and Banjaran
~~~~~~~ possibility of meeting the elephant on road
~~~~~~~~reckless bus+lorry+motor driver (read the post and my comments below it)
~~~~~~~~~the scorching desert and burning rain
~~~~~~~~~~tiredness of hell
~~~~~~~~~~~roadblock is everywhere

a journey without of:

~~~~money
~~~valid license
~~energy
~PERMISSION FROM MY SISTERS AND PARENTS

These reasons especially the fourth bolded reason speaks stronger than the rest..the reason of not going back with my motor and all my plan was ruined..my sister went to madness last night for this.even the conversation occurred in phone, the tone signaled the frequency of inevitable wave..simply speaking, i was not allowed...shit, i know the reason for the madness for my own good, for security purposes, but the tone is making me devastated all through the hot sleepless night...

the thing is, i hate women when they start to membebel...either my own mother, my sisters or my lecturers, they are all the same...tone of death...

but, i'll always believe there something that happen..blessing in disguise..even i was scolded, even i repeat syntax, even i extended to part 3, every of these things has it's blessing...

p/s: special thanks to Nik Suhaila sbb dia yg kejut sy pergi exam..without her, syntax next semester will be the definite answer, again...thanks again...

Holiday despite the exam hall

i need a holiday, i mean a very long holiday..i'm tired with all these shits~~assignments, people and environment..yes, tomorrow is my final paper, Structure of English(syntax), which i repeat because of falling it last semester.. i got D, very solid D, thanks Mrs. Nazira for giving me this..since falling a paper starts at C-, D is absolutely a Damn Dumbass Donkey(DDD)..but, i ain't regret for what i did last semester but i was given the second chance to repair my result..


....LEARN FROM MISTAKES....NEVER REGRET OF YOUR MISTAKES....

reality, i was an extender and repeater..did learn from my mistakes?? ~~i thought i was but it seems that it says otherwise..arghh...

i don't blame the lecturer for my foolish result, i blame myself for any wrong doing..i try to learn from my OWN and others' mistake but you can see me coming late to the class and make trouble with most of the lecturer...i ask myself the word WHY?? why is a very huge, general, and carries lots of explanation of word..

well, see the title again..i went to Malacca after finishing Educational Psychology, which was a hell on earth(damn, i cant answer any of the questions).. being so stressed, i chose "escapism"~~a holiday..i don't take drugs nor alcohol as an escape but cigarette is a must..i went to Malacca for a short holiday..i picked Gunung Ledang as a place of comfort, peace, and nature..it was awesome! the cold, the fish, the calm, the air, the setting were making me forget about how cruel life is, even just a moment..yes, i did visit several other places in Malacca and after one and the half years (where the last time i was part-3 in Pre-Deg), things have change rapidly here..haha, i look like a travel agent advertising Zoom Malaysia or something but who damn cares?? i like Malacca and have lots of wonderful memories years ago..

i'm back now to Shah Alam and so lazy to study syntax...argghh, i don't want to repeat it again...honestly....i think writing this post in express of my laziness to study..help!

oopss.....i dropped phonetics!

yes, i dropped phonetics..quite a decision eh? very smart decision, indeed..i repeat syntax coz, of course, i failed the paper last semester..damn! i think i am the only person from my batch who dropped phonetics~~don't think others are crazy enough to drop the subject..well, i know this round or another, i will going to take phonetics next semester..

people keep on asking, telling, giving information about the subject...wake up guys! i dropped the subject la..how many times i need to tell you about this?? len kali makan buah zaitun n kurma byk2...however, moment ago, thing happens that make me slapping my forehead, (da pening da sampai), one of my freinds send me a piece of SMS, a jokes perhaps, to wish her friends a good luck in the exam...but,aaah, i ain't sitting any paper tommorow..below is the message:

Congratulations! Good news for all UiTM students, FINAL EXAM have been cancelled in this sem. To confirm, kindly log on to www.stopdreaming&startstudy.com..Gdlck!!

Very good jokes..in fact, is it really there the stated website on internet?? hell no..simply click the stated website for confirmation...hahahha..you guys are very funny! however, it is a good jokes!

erm, i have something stuck in my mind..do you think i was taking the right decision dropping the phonetics, a three credits hour subject?? sure you will doubt about it..you know i'm damn lazy and lambat-pergi-kelas person..but, i think it was the best for me and definitely not for you..but, i can't simply say it will going to be an easy day next semester..with PTE (Payah Tahap Epilapsi) and other veracious subjects to come, it really make me sit behind desk and scratch my head..

but, i'll try to stand the volcanic larva next semester, face the consequences of dropping paper, be the man...berani buat berani tanggung r..

..........HOPE FOR THE BEST, PLAN FOR THE WORST..........

i am standing between the Devil and the deep blue sea (i know u hate this line usop)..hope all the best for all of us except you and me are different..sitting in the goblet of fire..

p/s: rebah di tikar sejadah sujud meminta keampunan dan pertolongan dari-Nya...amin..

sadis dan tragis

This is my tempat menyidai kain(TMK)~~place where i put my towel+sejadah..very scary and very very old school i must say, indeed..actually, TMK was originated from wardrobe, cloth wardrobe, you know, very cheap where you can buy in Mydin n Giant..but, after my ex-house located in S19 was ambushed and attacked by rabies mice and mutated cockroaches, they ate my green wardrobe alive! shit, it fell into pieces..

i can't threw the wardrobe just like that, at least, not all! so, i collected a few pieces of the batang of the wardrobe and my rusty brain triggered something else useful~~~~make a TMK ..

but, everything that stand will fall, so do my TMK..it falls into pieces..shit, i need to wait next semester to have a real TMK--wooden TMK..i only have money that only enough to make my mouth smoking, other than that is BULLSHIT!!

This post is not to beg sympathy nor empathy from you, not even to attract Bersamamu, but just to express my feeling of my beloved TMK falls..huhu..arghh, too many things need to buy these days!

i am too fat to be Ricky

pointless i said because all hell set loose for two bloody months clouding the sky crawled behind my back..yes, it's done..last night, was the climax for this semester..my final drama went smoothly~where i never thought it could be!

aaah, i feel plain right after the curtain of the stage closed..even though, the drama went successfully achieved, i felt neither happy nor proud nor disappointed..plain..we have been struggle like hell..endless sleepless night and fatigue..

i don't care what other group has achieved nor what people said towards my drama..since theater is passion, critic is part of it..in fact, i received countless of critic coz of i'm not perform my roles during the practice well...but, to those who saw my drama last night, you judge it yourselves!

yes, i am to fat to carry a character that require to be damn hot and fucking macho coz i'm damn not that kind of character..but,think i carry it quite okay..but, maybe different people have different perspective towards my character..lalala...

erm, i'm bored to talk about my production..but, last night proved the already-proven stuff..i always said retarded people will always be fucking bastard..their stupidity is marvelous! they are trying to show their little power they have to the most-unlikely-creature-imaginable~~~student~~us~me! damn it u asshole! he, the hall keeper, told us not to do this and that and we accept it with an open heart..he told us not to push down the table even though the drama deeply needed to do so but we put the priority aside for the sake of not making trouble..

well, during the drama, anything can happen and yes we accidently ter-push the table because it was damn dark that time..one of the chair also patah, and one of the actress was wounded due to the broken orb spreaded on the stage..

sial punya keeper, after the drama over, he rushed madly to my lecturer and complaining this and that..eh, watafak man?? we told you it was an accident and we have no intention whatsoever to do such thing...i curse him from the moment he open his fucking mouth..

well, that's people! i say nothing more..but mark my word, never give power even as small as ant to the retarded people because they will abuse it..they use it to menzalimi umat manusia ini...i hate these people with all my heart!


p/s: leave a comment for my drama..thanks
p/s: thanks for watching my drama
p/s: first time kene make-up...damn!
p/s: picture/video of my drama will be uploaded soon
p/s: who's with me against these bastards??

Ke-gem-bi-ra-an Menghisap Rokok

no no no...i rather starve to the death rather than not to smoke..people (those who are not smoke) keeping tellin' me even countless of saliva poured to my face and without a second of giving up to stop smoking...watafak! i'm telling you as long as money in my pocket, i will smoke~~my one and only igniter to keep my brain works like a well-oiled-machine..i don't give a shit! i know the hazard of smoking..in fact, every time i pull out a cigar from the box, there a big-ugly-stupid and i-want-to-puke-2-your-face-twice double sided picture printed on the cover of the box...see the below picture, but don't puke coz i will...



stop telling me to stop smoking. i don't even use a single cent of your bapak's money..i know your concern but let me tell you this:

Smokers will always reject anti-smoking campaign and advice

don't you think where the government got all the money to run this country? it comes from the the taxpayers money--smokers' money~~my money..i do my part in developing the country, everyday..what is your contribution to the country ha?? please, see the benefit of smoking from hidden perspective. it may seems to be hazard but it carries a greater good to us...

i hope that no more advise from anybody to quit smoking..da naik muak sangat dah..don't you have better thing to do..i accept any critics, comments, advices but not telling me to stop smoking..but, i URGE you to pull out a cigar and ignite it and feel it to believe it..TASTING IS BELIEVING!

p/s: smoking while writing this blog.

p/s: long live all smokers in the world..

p/s: katakan TAK NAK BERHENTI MEROKOK...

end of rice-less month

suffered i must say to you when i stop eating all rice-based-product and it means that i stop eating rice~~the most basic needs of us..not long but just barely one month..damn, it was a torture to me..eating just purely bread and lauk pauk when all of my friends in heaven eating the rice in paradise..

the first week was terribly hell! my hand was shaking like damn Parkinson dude! nevertheless, i, successfully, endured the first week..then, i realized that stop eating rice is totally crazy and torture, but, when looked it from the different perspective, is not about torture of not eating, but it was just a psychological attack to my mind and how i was going to manage my mental endurance~~(aku kecek supo aku ni da tip top Educational Psychology plak)

ermm, make it simple, you can do anything if you have a very strong will..phrase like "if there is a will, there is a way"...but saying it is much easier than done. trust me! can you stop eating rice for just one week? try it if you don't believe it..

seriously, i can say endurance la ape la, but, at least, i already achieve my target: NO RICE ALLOWED..so,what about you?? however, my friends amaze me because i can stop eating rice but shockingly, can't stop (or at least, reduce) my smoking habit...

i lost 9 kilograms of my fat body weight~~twice your weight (triple perhaps if you size like Khalid when you were a newborn baby.. 9kg in month! that was not just an accomplishment, the word is not suitable, is MIRACULOUSLY AMAZING, dude!

but, is not a happy ending story, today, i'm back eating the delicious white rice...i am very afraid that i will raise my weight again right before i can see my body shape change...dammit~

p/s: xde ke ubat yg bley ko tibai je ko nk makan ape tp berat badan ko x naik, x maintain, tp turun je berat badan ko...i'll bet kene telan marijuana sekilo sari baru bley kan...


this is obviously not my ass...!

Before semester close it curtain...It is heLL and I know it

i bet no blog (from tesl students) was written in the past few week and two three days to come, also..seriously, people are gifted with two hands, and with test+assignment+presentation+class and many other bullshits are killing and massacre everybody.. hope everybody can endure this final week of shit in clean hand..aduh, blaja pown susa, xblaja pown susa...yes, this time is between the Devil and the deep blue sea

p/s: as always, HOPE FOR THE BEST PLAN FOR THE WORST

p/s: ask something even i know i couldn't get it, please no more assignment..

Benci Pak Guard

i heard stories before a student who criticize Unit Keselamatan UiTM aka pak guard was banned from continuing the study in uitm..shit, if the story was true, and i believe the story was true, my one and only question i want to throw to these jackasses is:

~WHERE IS FREEDOM OF SPEECH??

This is a free country, at least, it 'seems' so but actually it is not..Erm, the thing is, aku kene saman hari ni by these bastards for a reason i couldn't accepted..there is no student's sticker stick to my motorcycle..dammit,i already applied it but in the system, my application for the sticker, is still not get the approval..but, the devil of hatred towards students flame the anger and shut his ears and not accepting any explanation~~~ignorance of hell! Ape masalah ko sebenarnya ha? Main rembat je nak saman orang, kalau aku saman bapak ko,camne??trase bangga x dalam hati ko??

why you want to create a system where you lack of knowledge to use your own creation..that's rubbish..people easy to do something but seriously shit speaking, they hard to maintain it..

dear my beloved readers, i know you all have bad experience with Pak Guard before..nobody likes pak guard~~not even the lecturers..they told us to respect them but they the one who do not respect us..! Am i right??

p/s: benci orang tua yang mahu kita hormat mereka tapi mereka yang baling najis pada kita..so,how are we going to respect them??

p/s: i love UiTM but don't like these people who tear the image apart..to pak guard who read this blog (if any), accept this critics with an open heart..baru la hidup aman!

usop, i am wrong...

this is quotation i took, copy and paste it here, taken from usop, my housemate..thanks buddy! you open my eyes and i am totally wrong and thanks for make things right...

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"April Fool adalah contoh kejahilan orang kafir, yang menghalalkan pembohongan disebalik topeng gurauan"

Forgot where I heard that. Just think about it. April Fool is not a day to laugh (referring to what you've posted). Its a day to LIE. And after delivering lies, people laugh about it. Now, the problem is not with the laughing process, but rather it is in the fact that there could exist such a day where you are ALLOWED to lie. We can laugh on many things, but wouldn't it be better if we DON'T consider lying as a legitimate way of expressing a joke ?? Even for one day. Because Like it or not, everyone knows lying counts as a sin.. (on most cases). And there cannot be a day where lying can be miraculously allowed.

Keep in mind, this is just my opinion~

Well at least you're not celebrating an occasion that is based on such history..
one that made a mockery of our religion, that is.

Anyway, I think you guys knew this already, that in the islamic point of view (perhaps scientifically).. laughing can lead to a poor memory. Moreover our prophet Rasulullah S.A.W. would prefer to smile rather than to laugh. Not to say that laughing is totally bad.. but tOo much.. erm, lets just say less is better..

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seriously, i was fooled and become a scumbag on April the first and shits it was not funny at all..Kinah called me and said that Mc'Yett has broke her foot.so, i told Cipet~where he was in deep sleep, rushing to go to Mc'Yett house. Kinah plak bley plak Fiat Punto die g mane ntah, told to Cipet to go to take Mc'Yett.

Long story short, Kinah, actually was fooled by her friends, which i do not know, April Fool katenye..Cipet went to madness cursing things...aahh, i hate when there are people who have retarded minds...They are BASTARDS! bullshit i said to their foolish act..that's not funny,idiots! These jackasses must vanish from the face of the Earth...

APE KEJADAH SEMUA NI???

to usop, you are right about this, i have nothing more than strongly agree to your comment above...thanks for the good advise!

p/s: Fuck all the people who fool other people just to make them laugh! Dig your own asses and smell it.. see how funny it is!

when hell closes it doors shut

she just remind me of my old days, days in school where teachers hold total domination and rule under veracious administration..hell!



i really want to take picture of my beloved~(damn)~ mandarin laoshi(teacher) but it just not simply can take picture just like that especially her..so, whenever you see her, APPROACH WITH CAUTION....i rather take a picture of tiger and lion (of course in zoo) rather than dare to stand in front of her and snap the picture..




she is andartu. and it stands for Anak Dara yang xbley jd Menantu! hahaha...she and other andartu(s) feel they are belong to nobody and seriously, can't have sex, and release their wrath to their students...i am the one (as always) be her punching bag..shit!

There shits happent in her class today:

1- Listening test dia mcm sial..the speakers in the cd are chinese~~pure blooded chinese~~and damn, i can't understand the speeding conversation..mu igt aku ore cino ko nok pehe kecek laju tumo lagu tuh..then, any suggestion for me what to do??tembak je la smua and never hit any targeted area! Crapt Crapt Crapt...Luckily my writing test went a little bit smoother..thank God!

2- In the middle of the writing test, came a lady in anxious, seems that something had clouded her mind..selambe dia ja masuk klas mcm tu. her eyes moved here and there and baru la ask for permission from the laoshi..she was looking for her car keys. pity!!but, her mind was under Panically Traumatised Behavior, and she,shockingly, looked under my table..da la aku tgh test..what are you looking, young lady? there nothing under the table..was she looking for the car keys or looking for something else??argh..hell no..when your mind stress with mandarin writing test, you tend to think shits!! but, i wonder if the lady can left her br**st at home, would she left it?? how come you can lost your car keys??

3- I was the last person leaving the class and when i submitted my writing paper, laoshi called me and expressed her I-BOOK-THE-HELL statement:

~~~"Afnan, here is your marks, 20.1 out 40, you just lucky you are slightly pass!"~~~

Damn! 20.1 out 40..if you rounding the score, i will get just 20%..how my marks can have point one?is it little be odd? is it just me or she the one who count it wrong??


Well, it is over now..and i glad i survive one semester with her class and there is only one more class to go and the next class just watch the role-play made from her students including me~~~~argghhh!

laugh laugh laughing...

laugh is the best medicine. we all know that..well, today is April 1st and of course, it's April Fool..erm, i have read many articles and endless of lectures not to celebrate April Fool..they say it was in history, where Muslim soldiers were fooled by the Christian missionary army and they were burnt alive..

the thing is, i am not celebrating it..but,

to me, there's nothing wrong to laugh. April Fool is a day to laugh. yes, we can laugh everyday and anytime we want but it just to remind us the need to laugh~the basic of human lives~as to be part of the society~ those who are still very conservative and trying to 'protect' Islam and say it is a sin to celebrate April Fool and will be put into the hell of fire. they suppose to dakwah in so many other ways to attract the young generation and other religion believer to believe and practice Islam~~Islam is simple! remember that!

not a single country in this world has a holiday on April 1st in commemorate of the April Fool day.. aah, how i am going to say this??they told us not to do anything funny on April 1st because they afraid we are celebrating April Fool. why??human needs to laugh. laughing is an acceptance and the existence of human lives..such intolerance is unacceptable.

we are civil society, not an evil community...

well, go to hell, i laugh a lot and don't stress and grudge towards me because i just like to laugh and not just this day but anytime when things happen to be funny and i laugh about it. in fact, i laugh ALMOST everyday!

erm, the weather is dark above there, let have something that can make us laugh or at least smile even it just a bit...come on!

P/S: ~not celebrating April Fool but i do laugh today twice!